i'm so wompy

It is so hard for me to get going in the mornings. We get up, make breakfast & then Maddox watches Diego or Blues Clues while I get my head together aka: get online. Mom of the year. That's me. I've never been a morning person. I wish Maddox & I could just be up all night & sleep all day. Oh well.

Maddox is so attached to me lately it's kind of driving me insane. I love him to pieces but sometimes I just want to tell him to get out of my face. I've been having pretty nasty headaches lately & having a 2 year old literally IN my face saying MOMMY MOMMY MOMMY over and over and tapping my shoulder to get my attention doesn't help.

I'm so cranky today. Obviously.

My back hurts. It always hurts. I've been doing spine stretches like crazy hoping to alleviate some of the pain but it doesn't help. I'm pretty sure this is something I just have to get used to. Some days it's so bad I can barely walk. :[ Ugh.

Ok, no more complaining for now.

I'm down 6 lbs. Not a whole lot, but 6 lbs none the less. :]

I broke down and drank a coke because I needed the caffeine dammit. It was delicious.

fatty fatty two by four

Everything is driving me insane lately. Especially people. Everyone needs to just chill the fuck out. GOD.

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ANYWAY.

I stepped on the scale yesterday and finally hit my breaking point [lol] when it comes to my weight. I've been a fatty since I had Maddox but it never REALLY bothered me because when I look in the mirror I do not see a fat girl.. UNTIL YESTERDAY.
So, time to make some serious changes.
I'll be focusing on my diet of course. I'm not on A diet.. diets are bullshit, but I'm going to eat a LOT healthier and a more balanced diet. I'll also be working out EVERY day. Today was the first day and holy crap I'm out of shape. I wanted to die. lol.
cardio cardio cardiooooo
Less alcohol.
No soda.... that one is going to be the hardest for me. :[

So here it is. I'm a fat bitch. I am going to lose 50 lbs.